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I don't usually like filling these out about myself, mainly because I never know what it is that I should say. I'm nothing special. I live a fairly ordinary life, filled with un-excitement. I'm 19 years old, and I live with my boyfriend in a townhouse that his father owns & lets us occupy for free (besides the utilities, of course). Matt and I have been together since April 30, 2006 and have also lived together since then as well, because at the time I had nowhere else to stay. We are the best of friends, or at least I'd like to think, and can get along very well until the conversation begins to involve serious matters such as bills, plans, and us -- that's when we tend to butt heads. He's an Aries, and I'm a Taurus, both very stubborn signs. So, there's no surprise when I say we fight - A LOT. They normally don't ever last very long, & in an hour or so you'd never know we were fighting because we end-up goofing around & laughing so much. I don't think I've ever met anyone in my life who's made me as happy & laugh as much as Matt has. We definitely have our problems, our different views on things, but him & I have been through a lot together and we understand each other & our needs on a different level that overcomes all of the normal bullsh*t of relationships.

Matt is pretty much my entire life. We are with each other the majority of our days, besides when we're at work, so I will talk about him a ton. Some stuff on me personally...

I was adopted as an infant by my grandparents, whom I will refer to as my MOM and DAD since they raised me. They both passed away, Mom on 6/7/00 and Dad on 6/24/04. I have my issues, I'm depressed & have built-up anger that tends to come out a lot, especially when I drink. I've been on & off of drugs since I was about 13 years old, and am currently only drinking alcohol which lately has become a bit of an issue & I'm trying to calm it down. I have 2 older sisters. My oldest sister, Kathi, is my biological mother but I will not refer to her as such. We have a weird relationship, we get along but there's that unspoken emotion underneath that I don't really understand and probably never will. The middle sister is Tracey. I am closest with her although her & Kathi are very close as well. Tracey was who I lived with after my father passed away. I lived with her for almost 2 years until she discovered I was back on drugs, and due to the fact that she has 2 young children had to kick me out. I fully understand that now, but at the time I didn't because of how high I was all the time. Smoking pot daily turned into getting drunk every night, and the cycle continued until July of Last Year. Matt had gotten involved in coke. I wasn't working, had no vehicle, and sat at the house along all day while Matt was at work. We were constantly fighting, and it was almost as if there was nothing left between us as we would never speak. There was always at least 5 people over the house, on drugs, and it got to the point where I couldn't handle it anymore. I freaked-out, he kicked me out, a series of events happen that led me back home to Matt & he took me to Pennsylvania to live with my Aunt. I stayed there for a month, went to AA meetings 3+ nights a week, got a car, got a job, and learned a lot about myself & my state of mind. I got the phone call from Matt, crying & asking me to come home and I did less than 3 days later. That's where I am today. We have been through a ton since then...Matt served 30 days in jail for a D.U.I. We lived at his fathers' for probably about 6 months before moving back home. Since then, we have been drug-free. We drink alcohol, we used to not drink that often but lately it's become a nightly occurrence which is why I say I need to calm it down. Due to the fact that I'm incredibly depressed, mixing that with alcohol is almost always a horrible situation ending in tears, bruises, and lots of money replacing the things that get broken in my house.

I think that's more than enough about my life... ♥

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